Sore throats. We all get them.
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So for the last couple of months I have been working on a blog. I'm still in its early stages.
I've called it At Home with Wendy .
It focuses on healthly living, recipes, day to day stuff, food benefits and general things I like.
I will start posting them over here as well with a direct link to the post.
I hope you enjoy reading these as much as i enjoyed writing them!
Hey everyone =)
My goal here is to try to be more active.
Mostly posts about everyday stuff. Maybe a pic here and there.
Well I need to face the fact that I will need to move to Sydney as much as I hate the thought of it.
For the last few months Jaz as been trying so hard to find a job. He as applied for thousands of jobs and not one is successful.
And now, this house is ridden with black mold and the house is deemed unfit to live in. and we have less than 1 week to find and move into another house.
Rey has blamed me for this financial debt we are in, and now she doesn't trust me, hates me, and dare I say despises me. I have humiliated her, embarrassed her and crushed her. She will not forgive me. She doesn't want me to be carer anymore as she wants Jaz to do it now.
I have told my family everything that has happened here. And I know they don't hate them, maybe just a little disappointed.
Now I know that I said I would sell all my craft things but I'm a hypocrite. I don't want to give up all of it. But right now I do hate it because it feels like she pushed me into it.
How did it get like this?
Did I do all this and ruined everything? Have I ruined my chance on life on the Gold Coast for good?
If I did. I didn't mean to. If I could turn back time I would. If I could erase things from my past I would. If I can make this better I would. If I could start this over from when I moved here I would. If I could patch things up with Rey I would.
But I know I can't, and I'm truly sorry for everything I've caused. I just want things back the way they were.
I want Jaz to have a career here on the Gold Coast. I want to be happy here on the Gold Coast.
Will everything ever be ok?
- Current Mood: blank
His mother finally got all her memory back and has already picked a fight with us, me mainly (again), nothing new there. I've tired of her putting me down. And apparently I don't make any financial decisions with the household. And basically i spend too much on craft and other things. And I don't save. Basically she's putting the blame on me with everything that is happening.
Well seeing as it was her idea for me to set up my craft, she now has destroyed my love for it. I'm considering on selling everything. I might keep a few a things to make birthday/xmas tags but we will see.
I am officially looking for work now, Jaz wants me to this for his sake. His idea, so I am going to start looking for work. just something casual, as i'm still legally a full time carer. But I can work up to 20hrs without having to report it to centrelink. At least once i do get something I can get away from the bitch that is supposedly my mother-in-law.
I have been thinking about organizing my wedding without her. I have already decided that barb with be my maid of honor. And I will probably have one other bridesmaid. Its going to be a low key wedding. Close friends and family. do something like what Chris and Garry did with theirs. I might make it little theme of red,white,black. And I will be wearing a black dress.Our cake is going to be cupcakes. And I will probably hire a caterer and have set meals. If they don't like it they don't have to eat it. I should open a wedding fund...
I don't feel any better after getting this off my chest.
Another reason why i'm jealous of Sarah. And we aren't even friends anymore.
I miss life.
August photo a day challenge
Well I have just found the prefect hair style for me... It will become apart of my special treat for when I have achieved my weight goal. And even Jaz approves of the look... well actually it was more of a drool lol!!!!